Fearsome Fairy Tale

Fear to me is something that pushes yourself, of course, it intimidates you, of course, it shivers you up but it makes sure you don't give up. Growing up I had a lot of fears like fear of standing and giving a speech on stage which I still am trying to overcome this one, fear of being alone which doesn't bother me now, fear of those awkward greetings where I am trying to shake a hand and the other one says namaste, fear of being one of those bumps you find at the end of railroad corners, fear of mumbling every time I am speaking. These fears are part of life, they come and they go leaving with you some part of yourself. It's a manifestation with yourself. From past few days I have been countering a new kind of fear, it is scary and it does horrify but in a unique kind of way in which no fear does. The Fear of Future, the fear of that isn't even existing yet. This isn't the fact that I have a phobia of it or something but it's a blessing in disguise, especially for an overthinker. I have thought of multiple ways how I am gonna end up. I know it seems funny, but to me, it pushes me out of bed every day making me realize what I don't want to be, well we obviously cannot determine what we will be one day but  I definitely know what I don't want and how I am going to avoid that. It's kind of my Tinkerbell, tinker power in hand, making me believe in myself that still, I have a lot to do, still making me think what else I can do instead of regretting what I have done, making me a tale in itself that I don't want to vanish in itself, making my life fearsome yet my fairy tale. Isn't this the way all of our lives go?

-Samarth Sarin