Chaos Of My Mind

Flying through the chaos,         
Trying hard to embrace and engross.
Getting lost in this cloud of gloom, 
Yet never leaving the hope that these roses will bloom.
Felt as a funeral of order,
Colder heats and heartbeat getting louder.
Should I stay? Or should I go?
Was this the answer I by myself supposed to know?
Cause with every happenstance life gets harder,
Clearly, it is the chaos that bothers. 

Pressure on your shoulders,
Feels heavy like boulders.
Is this disorder that takes you further? 
Or am I collecting adversities like prune preserver.
My mind and body can feel their presence.
Still unable to hear the rhythm, Still feeling no resonance.
Is confusion the answer to all my questions?
Silence in sound is my mind's abduction.
Should I frown? Or Should I let go?
Isn't it tough to grow with the flow? 
Cause with every happenstance life gets harder,
Clearly, it is the chaos that bothers.

Yet I carry no baggage of worries and frown.
Every problem has a pro & a con.
I am still stuck in a matrix where I don’t wanna be alone.
But now I have started to find a paradise in this war-zone.
Cause and effect of time will remove all contradictions. 
This too shall pass, there will be a time of no frustration.
Trying to feel this as a bittersweet symphony,
Like pebbles and shells giving the waves a company.
Crashing the wave, yet enhancing its shore. 
By the deep sea, and music in its roar.
I look neither for power nor glory,
But friends and foes I know this is not the end of the story.

-Samarth Sarin